THE BALANCE OF NOTHING

Well, here we sit once again without much of a plan and with no job of consequence and no home. It's a place I have become all too familiar with in the past four to five years. I attribute it to the pursuit of education. We have done things a little different than most. We began our family and then our education and continued our family while continuing our education. Then began a career but it wasn't quite time because the education wasn't finished yet so we are finishing the education in hopes to someday be done with this transitioning from place to place and school to school. We want to make some thicker roots and begin to really provide for our family now. So that one day they will have a place to call "home"; something I never had. I am about to attempt the 33rd move of my life and I am 33 years old. That's not normal at all and not something I am proud to admit anymore. I am exhausted by it and I am ready to stay. Unfortunately we are not moving into a permanent residence but once again into an education environment. It is just for 6 months to a year while Cody finishes his M. Div and we can find that permanent dwelling at last. So, I sit now in Kalamazoo, MI in the middle of nothing much to do but wait. It's harder to do than you'd think. I call it, balancing nothing.

THE BALANCE OF NOTHING

The balance of nothing
Is much harder than it would seem
For when the air is light
There remains a bunch of dreams

The balance of nothing
Takes patience and careful thought
And the day may dwindle on
But you might feel yourself quite caught

It begins when everything ends
And the day has no more routine
No place to be, and nothing to accomplish
It's a null of responsibility

It ends when all begins again
A dream that comes to life perhaps
Or maybe just a mandatory doing
Like work for food that brings no joy

Yes, the balance of nothing
It takes no set form
But demands an attentive mind
To keep from losing ones sanity

The balance of nothing
Nothing new, nothing exciting,
Nothing progressing, nothing inviting
Nothing, nothing, nothing.